| | just talked to ma for abt 40mins... it conversation today felt like it was gone in a snap... :) we talked about plans to come for my graduation ceremony... i lamented a bit about the hassle of storage and some complicated moving plans for next few weeks... haha... then we talked about the rest of the family... :) my eldest brother bdae was yesterday (and i msg him slightly past midnight... oops) my second eldest brother has moved on into a new job learning new stuff and enjoying the airport environment (although bit cold)... my dad taking things easy and I respect him because he is someone tt always knows his stuff (I also admire his punctuality - something which i resolute to achieve)
my conclusion: i miss home!
my family had fish head hotpot yesterday! I remember going to that hawker centre exactly one year ago when i arrived home... and we also had dinner there the last night before I came over for my final year of studies... as I thinking about the simple fares at hawker centre with my family and friends.... I cant help but miss home! these are the things tt i enjoyed most about spore despite the humid weather, one party rule, lack of free speech, label as a fine city, chewing gum ban, rigid education system... i realise i m willing to put up all these for the sake of family friends and of course haha - wide variety of cheap and good food!
looking back, this 3 years has been a mix of gains and losses.
if i was in spore, perhaps i wld be able to enjoy an exciting hostel life and chance to organise more events/camps. perhaps i wld be able to do a lot of chinese pop singing. perhaps i wld be able to continue pop piano lessons and vocal lessons and become a better performer. perhaps i wld b a lot closer to many of my gd friends back home - i wld be there through their ups and downs. perhaps i wld hv chance to go for many youth expeditions overseas to do community work. how wld i have turned out to be?
time always seem to fly when one looks back. as we look forward, time passes slowly. it always feels like there is time to do lots of things in future. no matter what you do, time passes.
3 years. it is 2007 now! a while ago i was still a fresher, very thrifty abt spending pounds, not worrying much about studies, excited abt being able to conquer the whole world by travelling, kept thinking how different life wld hv been if i went to smu, the most tough of all - trying to maintain a long distance relationship.
life is vastly different now. i value quality of life although i still try to look for gd deals. realising that my degree classification affects my future pay directly has made me look at it seriously. i now value the company more than the destinations, and realise quality of visit shd matter more than quantity. studying abroad has made me appreciate home much much more, and appreciate what i already have instead of constantly looking outwards. overseas may not be necessarily a better place to live than spore. began to look for spiritual fulfillment instead of just on worldly matters and material things. i m also incredibly blessed to meet one of the best personalities on this planet - florrine (no its not a chemical but my lady).
i think i have grown to be more sure of my values and beliefs. the most impt lesson i have learnt is to treasure and appreciate the things that really matter. in the past i usually like to ignore the negative side of things. but now i have began to examine these imperfections. i also begin to realise the importance of preserving the reputation and dignity of others. i m more aware of my weaknesses and more accepting towards them - in a way they define me. it is gd to be less judgemental. i guess i am learning to accept things as they come, to release control and let go. to trust the unknown and live each day as it comes.
prayed individually for each of my family members and florrine. it was a moment of peace for me. i hope that i will be able to love each of them in the best possible ways.
nothing matters more than to love.
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